Making Decisions For Me
I’ve been thinking about my running a lot lately. Probably because people are so surprised when I tell them I’m not training for anything right now or, really, even running a lot at all. They are even a little shocked, which I found weird, until I started thinking more about it.
I’ve run 7 marathons over the last 2+ years. I blog about running. I talk about running. I wear running clothes more often than not. So I guess those reactions make total sense. I’m known as the “runner”.
But after Disney I was burned out. I had hit my max. I stopped loving it like I used to.
And that’s OK. I am totally fine with it.
But even though I’m fine with it, I still get the itch to sign up for a race when I see others doing it. Almost like I’m “missing out” or something. It’s so silly. I should be making decisions based on what’s right for ME, not what others are doing.
Which makes me 100% confident that I made the right decision with running the Cleveland 10k this year. I’ve run the marathon, I’ve run the half (3 times), and I’ve even run the 10k. I was so tempted to sign up for the half marathon this year – heck, I even considered the full! – but instead of jumping into it without thinking (like I’m known for doing!), I actually thought about it ahead of time. And instead of being excited about training I kind of dreaded it. I knew right then and there that I shouldn’t be running more than the 10k.
(after last year’s 10k!)
Who the hell am I?? I used to LOVE the 2+ hour runs once a week and spending week after week upping my mileage. It was such a rush! Now I dread any run over 45 minutes. Give me short and sweet. That’s where it’s at. At least for me. Right now.
And now, when I do run (about one to two times a week), I’m starting to fall in love with the sport all over again. I get that runners high that started me running in the first place! I’ve sure missed that feeling.
I’m pretty sure my marathon career isn’t over, it’s just “on hold” at the moment. A decision that I’ve made for me.
Have you ever had trouble making a decision for you, not based on what others were doing?